Love Unconditional

Your love is not for me to ask
It is for you to give
In return
My body is not for you to ask
It is for me to give

I have given away my heart
My feelings they called love
And all I could ever muster
Was courage to fall
Centered round my self
As its wont, I could never rise in love

All I remember is the passion
The commitments our bodies made
The moments of undeniable truths
And now it’s all so eerie
Does love have a logical ending?

The heart withers away, the mind is out of sight
What of my body?
The scars and the bites and the touches
Whose prerogative to forget?

I once made a compromise with my heart
Now the body refuses to withstand
The onslaughts and the insults
The amnesiac touches
The lips that are lying

If you must, acknowledge not the love
If you have to, stay away
But answer one last time
Why did you have to fiddle my body?
If you had to ignore it next

Pain slighted, dreams aroused, passion lighted
Honest gazes, trenchant brushes and strumming fingers
Now when you are gone; turned tables
Your denials of moments, your murder of trust
Just confess, you were with my body
My mind shall bother you no more

Because bodies do not lie
It’s like the last time our bodies met
Because touches do not lie

In the darkness when I shut myself to your world
All I have is my own body
Writhing in pain
Of twisted truths
Tender touches which it craved and requited
And now you are so far away

Mind, heart and soul and all irrational objects
May forgive you
My body
Cannot.

Henceforth
My body is my own
I shall give, I will rent, I got to own

– Saswat Pattanayak